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Isolation grows Darkness setting in on me An abandoned life

A dreary mist settles amongst my world. Pitter-patter of young feet no longer echo to my ears. No laughing, no crying, no arguing; things that until now, you forget to appreciate. A warm body, gentle breathing, a movie in the background; disruptions, needs, and wants. How arbitrary when submerged.. how needed; when you are alone. What arises? Nothing, but the isolated pains of a cruel; unforgiving, relentless mind.

Pain pulsing again Realizations of mistakes Forever destroyed

Once again left deserted in the isolated caverns of my mind. The fear of abandonment in this unaccompanied friendless state. Every shadow a memory of rejection. Every sound a reminder of my unwanted solitary. Is it fair to feel secluded from the outside world, Forever trapped in a desolate uninhabited present. Unable to attain cheerfulness, Remaining a forlorn figure in the distance; Abject Hopelessness. A degrading, pitiable crestfallen failure. No, it's not fair. But, I continue; Continue pushing towards a better future. And that is fairness, the ability to carry on and still have a chance at something great.

Compliments are good, lets see Flattery is bad, it is not free My words; for you, may be instructive So you are highly productive.. A good woman, who helps family Works hard; adventures happily Reliable and constructive, So you are highly productive.. Jippii, circus, and much more; Work in a kitchen, old hearts soar A deep past that is obstructive, So you are highly productive.. Blessed be on your continued path, Not flattery on my behalf, Let this help be reconstructive So you are highly productive..

Meeting you is the greatest experience To have you enter my life was amazing Your enduring resilience Keeps my morale always rising But with that I grow sad into my soul it is sizing Blood on my hands, causing me to go mad You seemingly so pure and undefiled His grace to allow our meeting makes me glad Brings back innocence of a child But I've done evil, things that never wash from my mind Yours beautiful and wild Im afraid my past will bind And keep your purity confined

At first, A plan for me That turned out not to be; Instead a lesson for you to Discover.

I need To be honest About my feelings too And this makes it difficult With you

Alone Walking this path Never understanding What is meant for me to believe In life

In this world I have not much to show To weave this story over time, take it slow To be at peace; free from pain Moving forward not in vain Why do I feel that I've fallen so low? So much to understand and know Strike down all those that are foe Trying my hardest to remain sane In this world My pains to carry are dues I owe When will I be free to go? Regret and guilt my past a stain Trapped under the weight of this chain From all this I can only hope to grow In this world